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Monday, 05 October 2009
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Far
By Regina Spektor
Man of a Thousan Faces
see relatedWOW!!!
Okay, so, first I must say: HOLY FUCKING SHIT, IT'S XANGA!!!!!!
I haven't been on here in MONTHS (obviously), and am only really posting this blog because a guy friended and added a comment on my last blog, and it made me want to start writing on here again. Thanks, sweety! <3So, like..geeze. Where to even start?
Summer went by so fast. It was all a blur of Lady GaGa and pizza dough. I quit my job the week before I left and devoted the week to my friends, family, and packingg. It was so, so crazy! Haha. The entire summer was crazy, and full of boy drama. Like, really. >_>And now I'm in college! AND I'M FUCKING EIGHTEEN! How awesome is that shit? I mean, really!
I don't feel any different. Or, well; I DIDN'T feel any different. Now I'm living on my own, and it's just..so surreal. lol. I love it so much. I don't have to rely on anyone, and it's just..peaceful. The only thing I miss is having money. :/ I refuse to get a job, because I worry too much about my studies and such, so..yeah. lol. That's the only thing that's lacking in my life right now.Ah. Life. It's so lovely. :]
Sunday, 03 May 2009
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The Fame
By Lady Gaga
LoveGame
see relatedUpdate!
So, everything lately seems to be going fairly well.
Unless God him(her)self comes down and smites me, I will be graduating the 22nd of this month. I have found a stellar roommate in college, so I will not have to worry about ending up with some super-douche straight guy (guy I found is gay, thank Shiva). I am going to be getting more Shift Runner hours at work starting next week, which is both a good and bad thing. Good because it's more money, bad because I will be closing four times a week, two of those days being days that we close at eleven. However, an upside to this is that my boss is wanting to give me a raise. She said that I have progressed greatly over the past couple months, and that I deserve it. It will not be some great raise, probably nothing more than a nickle or dime, but at least it is something. All I have to do is have her time me again, and see how fast I am. I have gotten faster, we can both attest to that. So, yeah. :] That is always funnn.
I have been hanging out with friends a lot lately. Makes me realize how much I am going to miss them when I leave. Earlier last week, a friend of mine in chorus had me crying because she was talking about how much she was going to miss me and all this other sappy stuff. I had no clue she felt so strongly, and I was just on the borderline of just breaking down and bawling. Craaazyness.
My life is truly starting to being. After this summer, I will not longer be a minor. I will be a full grown adult, thrown out into the real world. It will be on my own shoulders to support myself and find my own way to live, and I will be DAMNED if I end up back at my parent's house, sucking them dry because I cannot support myself.
Wish me luck. :]
Wednesday, 22 April 2009
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The Fame
By Lady Gaga
Eh, Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say)
see relatedHmm..
Ever felt like you couldn't cry?
Like the tears are there, and they are trying to hard to just burst forth and flow freely and never end.
Yet there's something stopping them. No matter how badly you want them to, the tears just stand on edge and never flow.That's how I feel. I don't understand why. I just can't cry. It's pissing me off. The last time I cried freely was when I was in the car with him, and we were almost to where we had to part. I cried. Hard. I could barely stop, I was crying so hard. No matter how hard I tried, the tears refused to cease.
Now, when I want to cry and let everything out and just wash it all away, away, AWAY...They refuse to come.
They choose to stand on the edge and look down, but never to fall.I was correct in saying that I will never be the same.
It is impossible for me to go back.
However, I can, and will, move on.This time, I will grow.
I WILL learn from my mistakes.I wish I could just stop thinking about you...
Wednesday, 15 April 2009
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Aliens & Rainbows
By Ferras
Take My Lips
see relatedi can't describe accurately how i feel inside..
How fast is too fast?
Is there really a true definition?
Can it really be too soon for something?
Especially if it feels so, so right?
Sure, there's always the thought that it's just lust.
Pure, unadulterated lust.
Some people get married on a whim when they feel so strongly.
Sometimes it works; those relationships flourish into something very strong, and they last a lifetime.
Others, after the lust fades, fall out and end in a nasty divorce.
So, how can you really be sure when you're going too fast?
I don't know.
All I know is that..
It feels right.
And I know I've been swept off my feet.
Never will I be the same.
Never.
Tuesday, 07 April 2009
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Twilight (The Twilight Saga, Book 1)
By Stephenie Meyer
see relatedI feel like..writing, or something.
So I got to thinking. I feel like a..fairy, if I may. A broken fairy, crumpled in a heap on the floor. My wings are tattered, my hair is all askew, and I barely have the energy to stand. I am on the verge of just giving up and letting my light slowly fade away.
I do not know why I feel this way. It's very, very odd. Especially with how happy I have been the past week. Perhaps it is just that I feel like I need someone to lean on, or something? I know I have a co-dependent nature.
I do not know..it is so very, very strange.
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- Name: Caleb
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I'm just a regular, some-what average gay teen living in a boring town. I just want to get out and live. Nothing wrong with that.
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